13 Aug

Disclaimer: This is totally my opinion, others can disagree. please do not send death threats or anthrax.

So The Bourne Legacy has released worldwide. I am yet to see it. And I can not wait. I was really unsure how good this movie might turn out to be, considering this was to be directed by Tony Gilroy and not Paul Greengrass. I mean, how many people can create the tension and confusion that Paul Greengrass creates. And Tony Gilroy for an action movie? His best movie till now was Micheal Clayton. Him making a Bourne movie seemed weird!

And so a few days back, I had gone to see Total Recall (crap movie!). There I got to see the new trailer for The Bourne Legacy which did make me feel Tony Gilroy might pull it off. It was fascinating. And Jeremy Renner seemed to do justice to the role.

I couldn’t accept it if the movie goes horribly wrong. This is simply one of my all time favorite franchises. Imagine James Bond left all alone without any backing from MI6, so super-awesome weapons, no money. Can he survive the way Jason Bourne does? Its hard to believe he will. Sean Connery might survive, coz he’s awesome. But fan boy stuff apart, hard to imagine so. Also Jason Bourne after going through all the traumas that he went through, maintains the psychological integrity that even Rambo couldn’t maintain. How cool is that eh?

I was thrilled when I first read Robert Ludlum‘s Bourne Identity. Yes i read the book before watching the movie and was confused for the most part of the movie since I couldn’t find Carlos anywhere. But nevertheless, I loved the movie. Trust me, those books are a must read for every bourne  fan. Although the Legacy part is not from the book.

If the next movie goes horribly wrong I am sure that there are many who would like to go medieval on Tony Gilroy’s ass. But till I see it, I am just gonna hope for it to turn out good!

a sense of derangement

3 Aug

Some people live a good life, and some live a bad one. Well there are some, they live life like a swing that sways back and for from the good to the bad and takes an occasional extra leap to one of those ends. It may sound too good at times but the disruptions it can produce later on leads to sheer madness within the mind.

Only the few chosen unfortunates get to live this way, through some fault of their own or maybe none. It kind of gives one a great deal of hope during those good times but only to bring it all down crashing with what has to follow. And at the worst possible times they are shown a ray of hope to cling by, but sooner or later, that will go away too.

It is under such confusing circumstances that they try to live an ordinary life, attain some sort of stability. Even if a certain amount of stability is attained, it is only to be ruined by the fear of disruptions that lingers somewhere in the back of their mind. It is some sort of a curse that you can’t escape from. Sometimes you fail to notice it even exists.

It is under such madness that they try to make friends, to be one with the society. It becomes a tough task to look at others without any involvement of your inner confusion. Everyone seems to be hiding some sort of hatred against you and it pushes you further inwards your shell. No matter how much one tries to get close to you, you can’t let them in. You are constantly reminded of all the worse that is to follow this good moment, this tiny little moment of joy that you can have. All that clouds your mind is the thought of falling harder that you have before.

Relationship fails to survive, friendships cease to exist and a certain amount of madness remains inevitable. It is amazing how at this point everything seems so very much against you that you feel you are the root cause of everything wrong around you. Maybe you are, maybe you aren’t, how would you know?

Maybe all your inner negativity and self-loathing is the cause of all wrong around you. Or maybe that’s the reason you feel everything’s wrong around you despite them being all fine. What can you do in such a case? Reach out to someone? But you have never learned to trust a person or open up to anyone. All you can do is get more entwined in the thoughts of self-loathing and pity and try to survive another day amongst the crowd.

So why am I writing this? I am not sure, maybe I am stuck somewhere in such a position and I can’t seem to find a way out. And what bothers me most is, is this for real? Or is this just another manifestation of my self-loathing?

The exec side..or the dark side of the force!

1 Aug

Yes the execs, and all such similar creatures. They are one bad evolutionary branch of the human species. I personally believe that this species forms more supervillians than genius scientists pushed over the edge. Yes these include your everyday PROs, your HRs and other such people who like to recruit, fire, make deals and act like Donald Trump. sad.

But the one interesting hobby that this species has is to not attend to people. Yes, that’s something they consider fun.  Yes these descendants of Darth Vader(my personal belief is that he might have laid roots for the management course), they ask you to mail them, call them, contact them and they sit back and enjoy.

Everytime I am made to contact one of “them”, I imagine a group of those people, sitting together and looking at some giant screen and laughing at the desperation with which I am trying to contact them. I had to once call an HR for some work related purpose, yes funny looking back at it now. They picked up and said they were redirecting me to the HR, and they did, and the phone rang and rang and rang and rang forever. Okay so I get it, you are busy, but isn’t it easier to just say no rather than have a room filled with many telephones that you never pick up! I should get one such room if I start a company.

If that humiliation at the hands of these modern day Sith Lords weren’t enough, I had another encounter with a much smoother and more brutal HR. Yes these kinds can get worse. One of these species had heard of my work and and was eager to work with me and asked one of our mutual contacts to ask me to send them my resume! Oh yes, they indirectly approached me for work. And yes I did send them my resume. Now just so we are clear and I have a damn good resume for someone my profile, I shit you not. So they replied immediately the next day saying unfortunately they had no work for me at the moment. I mean do they sit around and come up with cruel ways to torture those who dont have an MBA degree?

Refusing in understandable, ignoring is bad and approaching and refusing and then ignoring afterwards is evil. Getting in touch with them is like convincing a religious guy that his religion isn’t the true one. Its like asking a politician to do something     nice. Or maybe like asking Michael Bay to make a sensible movie. Yes its not going to happen.

As the great man Alfred once said, “Some people just want to see they world burn”. And when they suck at it, they get an MBA degree.

Eternal Sunshine of the spotless mind: Or how I learned to stop worrying and love the movie.

27 Jul

So if you are just reading this post because of the awkwardly long title I believe you really need to watch this Charlie Kaufman gem called Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless mind. And if you have seen the movie but are curious about the following part then check out the Stanley Kubrick masterpiece here!

And if you really understood both parts of the title, then needless to say, you are really awesome! And awesome was exactly how I felt when I saw both of these movies.

Eternal Sunshine of the spotless mind has such a beautiful plot that its hard to not love it. Who wouldn’t want to erase off people who aren’t worth being in our memory? But does that make much sense? Is it a completely flawed argument?

This confusion made me a Jack D. Ripper of sorts. Made me lose my mind wondering what purpose would erasing someone completely serve. Assuming this person is your love interest, lets say from work. Its all a pain, the love has gone, it hurts etc etc. So now you go ahead and erase them from your memory. Next time if you ever come across them, they are going to be an entirely new person to you, and then chances of you falling from them is really high i suppose. And some time later, shit falls apart the way it happened before and then what do you do? Erase them again? Have fun repeating that expensive procedure for the rest of your life. Or else find a new job, in a new city without having any clue why you want to find a new job in a new city(that idea is a part of your memory of that person and hence you wont remember it anyway, get it?).

It just seems like a sweet deal for the memory erasers for the rest of their lives. Unfortunately I had no Hydrogen Bomb to be deployed over Russia to release this tension of mine so I stopped thinking about it.  And as much as I stopped thinking about it the more I started to forget the movie and the thoughts that followed. Until recently when I saw the movie again and well…it all happened just the same way I predicted about erasing memory.

As Friedrich Nietzsche said Blessed are the forgetful: for they get the better even of their blunders.”

And till I forget this again, Hydrogen Bomb, anyone?

from behind the veils of perception

23 Jul

William Blake was a really smart man, there’s no arguing on that! So when he goes around saying

If the doors of perception were cleansed every thing would appear to man as it is, infinite.

you cant really disagree can you? I must admit I never cared much for the guy and i really heard this quote through Jim Morrison. Well whatever, it sounded cool when the guy said it! You always need a smart guy and a cool guy to make a quote and get it famous (I really need a cool guy or a marketing agent to get this blog more views, no seriously!).

So I had this really important work somewhere and unfortunately I had to walk there. And what i didn’t know was that I had to walk 4-5 kilometers and this walk was from the backward parts of the city. I felt like I was walking through The Narrows.

It took me an hour to cover the distance, yes using GPS and not asking people can make one slow but in my defense i was scared of  being mugged. What followed was me walking around following my GPS and observing each and every moving thing around me. This observation slowly transformed from fear to intrigue. What first stuck my fancy through a series of clichéd events(if it weren’t, this post would have been longer) was that they were so…ordinary! yes that’s the word. And I had never thought of that before, that these people could be ordinary. Poor, yes..but ordinary. Just like any one of us.

It was at this moment that I stopped thinking about being mugged and started observing more at this poverty struck reflection of ordinary society. It was fascinating to observe a low budget replica( i kinda like using film related terms, sorry) of your average day. Take off all the money and our life would be exactly as theirs, is what I felt.

And all that made me think any different was my perception, a perception inculcated in me by those around me, by my daily influences. I never cared to question it, after all its a known fact that the scum of the society comes from the poor, right? Maybe yes. I don’t know. But what I saw that day, weren’t the scum of the society. They were family men, friends, mothers, sisters, workers etc.

So now when I hear the William Blake quote, I think about the walk I took. It used to sound cool to me, but now it makes sense. But the biggest thing out of all this, a little bit of personal gain has been that, I have learned to avoid the veil of perception and see things for myself. I feel a better person. Its a simple story, with a greater impact. I like that. Simplicity can be greatly effective.

PS: If I had been mugged or stabbed that day, this would have been a completely different post!

Nolan, the Illusionist.

22 Jul

If you haven’t seen the movie yet, you better not read this(bookmark now, read later…read anyways).

So there ends the Dark Knight legend.  As said, now AD needs to be replaced by LANB(Life after Nolan’s Batman). And now sadness looms over the whole world as we all know it wont be the same ever again. The world was enthralled by one of the finest superhero movie experience ever. Nolan as we all know, never fails to deliver.

I have been a huge Nolan fan ever since I saw his first movie  Following and how I was blown away at the sheer brilliance of the plot and the ingenious direction. And this marvelous piece of cinema was to be followed by some other great work which doesn’t even need mentioning. If you didn’t know them, you wouldn’t be reading this anyways.

But then came the Dark Knight series and then came the Illusion. Batman Begins was one of the most fabulous piece of cinema I had ever seen. But it was to be followed by The Dark Knight which I believe marks the beginning of Nolan, the Illusionist. The Dark Knight gave us thrills and made us love the Joker like never before. His vision was unparalleled and his genius was unquestioned. But what made The Dark Knight the movie it is known to be was the scintillating performance by Heath Ledger. This wasn’t his best piece of direction though. His body of work had set a much higher standard.

Following it was The Inception. An interesting plot, highly engaging too but the number of flaws in the plot was hard to believe considering it came from Nolan. And why did those audience need to view it multiple times to understand the plot? I will never know. But yes, as long as I was inside the Cinemas i was enjoying it, every moment. And when I gave it a thought later, I realized the plot was too much flawed. Although I must say, I do appreciate Nolan for making me feel I was seeing one of the greatest films ever. But sadly I wasnt.

And so we come to The Dark Knight Rises, I was enthralled. It was a brilliant cinematic experience again. Much superior to Inception. I was overjoyed to see the epic conclusion but as the illusion wore off i wondered, could he have directed it better. Certainly, yes. Could he have given bane a better death? yes. Or did he die at all? Could he have ended Talia Al Ghul in a better way, maybe. It wasn’t the best death scene ever anyways. Did he handle the Bane-Talia-Death Well plot nice enough, i dont think so. But his illusion did work. The movie experience was magical. And I shall forever love The Dark Knight Trilogy.

All I hope for now is that the next Nolan Movie be a real movie and not an Illusion. After all Nolan as we all know, never fails to deliver.

PS: If the entire city of Gotham was sealed from the rest of the world how did Bruce Wayne just come back effortlessly? Sneaky Bastard.