Archive | August, 2012


13 Aug

Disclaimer: This is totally my opinion, others can disagree. please do not send death threats or anthrax.

So The Bourne Legacy has released worldwide. I am yet to see it. And I can not wait. I was really unsure how good this movie might turn out to be, considering this was to be directed by Tony Gilroy and not Paul Greengrass. I mean, how many people can create the tension and confusion that Paul Greengrass creates. And Tony Gilroy for an action movie? His best movie till now was Micheal Clayton. Him making a Bourne movie seemed weird!

And so a few days back, I had gone to see Total Recall (crap movie!). There I got to see the new trailer for The Bourne Legacy which did make me feel Tony Gilroy might pull it off. It was fascinating. And Jeremy Renner seemed to do justice to the role.

I couldn’t accept it if the movie goes horribly wrong. This is simply one of my all time favorite franchises. Imagine James Bond left all alone without any backing from MI6, so super-awesome weapons, no money. Can he survive the way Jason Bourne does? Its hard to believe he will. Sean Connery might survive, coz he’s awesome. But fan boy stuff apart, hard to imagine so. Also Jason Bourne after going through all the traumas that he went through, maintains the psychological integrity that even Rambo couldn’t maintain. How cool is that eh?

I was thrilled when I first read Robert Ludlum‘s Bourne Identity. Yes i read the book before watching the movie and was confused for the most part of the movie since I couldn’t find Carlos anywhere. But nevertheless, I loved the movie. Trust me, those books are a must read for every bourne  fan. Although the Legacy part is not from the book.

If the next movie goes horribly wrong I am sure that there are many who would like to go medieval on Tony Gilroy’s ass. But till I see it, I am just gonna hope for it to turn out good!

a sense of derangement

3 Aug

Some people live a good life, and some live a bad one. Well there are some, they live life like a swing that sways back and for from the good to the bad and takes an occasional extra leap to one of those ends. It may sound too good at times but the disruptions it can produce later on leads to sheer madness within the mind.

Only the few chosen unfortunates get to live this way, through some fault of their own or maybe none. It kind of gives one a great deal of hope during those good times but only to bring it all down crashing with what has to follow. And at the worst possible times they are shown a ray of hope to cling by, but sooner or later, that will go away too.

It is under such confusing circumstances that they try to live an ordinary life, attain some sort of stability. Even if a certain amount of stability is attained, it is only to be ruined by the fear of disruptions that lingers somewhere in the back of their mind. It is some sort of a curse that you can’t escape from. Sometimes you fail to notice it even exists.

It is under such madness that they try to make friends, to be one with the society. It becomes a tough task to look at others without any involvement of your inner confusion. Everyone seems to be hiding some sort of hatred against you and it pushes you further inwards your shell. No matter how much one tries to get close to you, you can’t let them in. You are constantly reminded of all the worse that is to follow this good moment, this tiny little moment of joy that you can have. All that clouds your mind is the thought of falling harder that you have before.

Relationship fails to survive, friendships cease to exist and a certain amount of madness remains inevitable. It is amazing how at this point everything seems so very much against you that you feel you are the root cause of everything wrong around you. Maybe you are, maybe you aren’t, how would you know?

Maybe all your inner negativity and self-loathing is the cause of all wrong around you. Or maybe that’s the reason you feel everything’s wrong around you despite them being all fine. What can you do in such a case? Reach out to someone? But you have never learned to trust a person or open up to anyone. All you can do is get more entwined in the thoughts of self-loathing and pity and try to survive another day amongst the crowd.

So why am I writing this? I am not sure, maybe I am stuck somewhere in such a position and I can’t seem to find a way out. And what bothers me most is, is this for real? Or is this just another manifestation of my self-loathing?

The exec side..or the dark side of the force!

1 Aug

Yes the execs, and all such similar creatures. They are one bad evolutionary branch of the human species. I personally believe that this species forms more supervillians than genius scientists pushed over the edge. Yes these include your everyday PROs, your HRs and other such people who like to recruit, fire, make deals and act like Donald Trump. sad.

But the one interesting hobby that this species has is to not attend to people. Yes, that’s something they consider fun.  Yes these descendants of Darth Vader(my personal belief is that he might have laid roots for the management course), they ask you to mail them, call them, contact them and they sit back and enjoy.

Everytime I am made to contact one of “them”, I imagine a group of those people, sitting together and looking at some giant screen and laughing at the desperation with which I am trying to contact them. I had to once call an HR for some work related purpose, yes funny looking back at it now. They picked up and said they were redirecting me to the HR, and they did, and the phone rang and rang and rang and rang forever. Okay so I get it, you are busy, but isn’t it easier to just say no rather than have a room filled with many telephones that you never pick up! I should get one such room if I start a company.

If that humiliation at the hands of these modern day Sith Lords weren’t enough, I had another encounter with a much smoother and more brutal HR. Yes these kinds can get worse. One of these species had heard of my work and and was eager to work with me and asked one of our mutual contacts to ask me to send them my resume! Oh yes, they indirectly approached me for work. And yes I did send them my resume. Now just so we are clear and I have a damn good resume for someone my profile, I shit you not. So they replied immediately the next day saying unfortunately they had no work for me at the moment. I mean do they sit around and come up with cruel ways to torture those who dont have an MBA degree?

Refusing in understandable, ignoring is bad and approaching and refusing and then ignoring afterwards is evil. Getting in touch with them is like convincing a religious guy that his religion isn’t the true one. Its like asking a politician to do something     nice. Or maybe like asking Michael Bay to make a sensible movie. Yes its not going to happen.

As the great man Alfred once said, “Some people just want to see they world burn”. And when they suck at it, they get an MBA degree.